1 00:00:02,794 --> 00:00:04,629 This film won top prize for a feature film 2 00:00:04,630 --> 00:00:07,508 at the 1964 Canadian film awards in Montreal. 3 00:00:09,927 --> 00:00:11,929 (Wind blowing) 4 00:00:18,268 --> 00:00:20,978 This film represents a filmmaker's take on the concerns 5 00:00:20,979 --> 00:00:23,649 of certain groups of French Canadian youth. 6 00:00:26,652 --> 00:00:28,861 Montreal, 1964. Under grey skies. 7 00:00:28,862 --> 00:00:30,530 During an unusually mild winter. 8 00:00:30,531 --> 00:00:34,326 Claude and Barbara are living out the last days of their relationship. 9 00:00:41,458 --> 00:00:43,335 National film board of Canada presents 10 00:00:44,169 --> 00:00:46,838 - my name is Barbara, and... 11 00:00:47,422 --> 00:00:49,590 I'll be 20 on October 8. 12 00:00:49,591 --> 00:00:51,093 I am Jewish. 13 00:00:51,426 --> 00:00:53,595 I'm a libra, 14 00:00:53,971 --> 00:00:56,848 but I don't really like that sign 15 00:00:57,015 --> 00:01:01,727 because it means my ruling planet is Venus, 16 00:01:01,728 --> 00:01:04,314 and I want to be an intellectual. 17 00:01:06,066 --> 00:01:07,693 - My name is Claude and... 18 00:01:09,444 --> 00:01:10,279 I'm 23. 19 00:01:10,280 --> 00:01:12,196 I'm French Canadian, so I'm trying to find myself. 20 00:01:12,197 --> 00:01:16,910 I know I need a lot of stability and a lot of... 21 00:01:18,704 --> 00:01:21,707 Advantages if I'm going to succeed at anything. 22 00:01:23,208 --> 00:01:24,793 In a film by gilles groulx 23 00:01:25,335 --> 00:01:28,171 my society doesn't give me what I need... 24 00:01:29,214 --> 00:01:33,677 To live a life that's enlightened. 25 00:01:35,721 --> 00:01:39,308 So, I tend to seek a kind of solitude, 26 00:01:40,183 --> 00:01:43,728 to find, within myself, certain truths. 27 00:01:43,729 --> 00:01:45,105 I have no choice. 28 00:01:51,862 --> 00:01:53,613 I'm like the cat in the bag. 29 00:01:53,614 --> 00:01:54,865 The cat in the bag 30 00:01:55,741 --> 00:01:57,743 (jazz music) 31 00:02:17,679 --> 00:02:21,391 - Photographs... mirrors... 32 00:02:21,558 --> 00:02:24,810 I do my hair, mess it up, I put on makeup... 33 00:02:24,811 --> 00:02:27,439 I come from a bourgeois family. 34 00:02:28,190 --> 00:02:31,276 I have to admit I enjoy luxury. 35 00:02:31,902 --> 00:02:33,944 I don't really get along with my mother... 36 00:02:33,945 --> 00:02:36,323 Well, she's pretty... 37 00:02:37,324 --> 00:02:40,077 Liberal in the way she thinks, but... 38 00:02:41,578 --> 00:02:44,164 With the bourgeois, there's always something. 39 00:02:44,331 --> 00:02:46,958 I can't date whoever I want. 40 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:50,462 I have to be home by a certain time. 41 00:02:53,465 --> 00:02:54,841 I'm sick of it! 42 00:02:58,053 --> 00:02:59,596 - One way to cope: 43 00:03:00,472 --> 00:03:02,808 As I was saying, be a loner. 44 00:03:03,600 --> 00:03:06,353 Stick to yourself and a few friends. 45 00:03:08,605 --> 00:03:10,375 [Voice over] That's why I'm reading the negro revolt, 46 00:03:10,399 --> 00:03:13,360 the Cuban revolution, and frantz fanon. 47 00:03:15,487 --> 00:03:18,865 I worship Jean vigo. I'm learning proverbs. 48 00:03:22,619 --> 00:03:23,979 I'm also reading this. Taking sides 49 00:03:25,872 --> 00:03:28,083 and this. A plea against censorship 50 00:03:28,875 --> 00:03:31,128 I cut out news articles to better remember events. 51 00:03:33,338 --> 00:03:36,258 And I tape them to the wall, along with my ideal woman. 52 00:03:36,883 --> 00:03:38,969 Ultimately, I'm looking for... 53 00:03:40,721 --> 00:03:41,721 A way out. 54 00:03:43,014 --> 00:03:45,474 I do a lot of biking. 55 00:03:45,475 --> 00:03:46,976 (Bicylcle wheel spinning) 56 00:03:46,977 --> 00:03:48,228 I'd like to box. 57 00:03:49,521 --> 00:03:51,481 [Voice over] I bought an Italian bike from baggio. 58 00:03:52,524 --> 00:03:54,025 And I've already got a boxer's nose. 59 00:03:59,614 --> 00:04:02,033 Truth is, I'm a bit lost. 60 00:04:03,243 --> 00:04:05,162 (Jazz music continues) 61 00:04:10,917 --> 00:04:14,629 One believes less and less in one's destiny. 62 00:04:16,256 --> 00:04:17,591 [Voice over] I'd like... 63 00:04:21,261 --> 00:04:24,013 No. I don't really want anything. 64 00:04:24,014 --> 00:04:26,016 (Bicycle wheel rolling) 65 00:04:26,641 --> 00:04:30,145 I worked at a newspaper, where I tried a few things, 66 00:04:30,312 --> 00:04:33,106 where I thought I could really express myself and really... 67 00:04:34,399 --> 00:04:35,400 Hear myself. 68 00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:39,279 I tried to reach people who would understand. 69 00:04:40,113 --> 00:04:41,656 It was a waste of time. 70 00:04:44,242 --> 00:04:46,036 - Last summer... 71 00:04:46,411 --> 00:04:48,413 (Jazz music continues) 72 00:04:49,998 --> 00:04:52,042 Before meeting Claude. 73 00:04:53,293 --> 00:04:55,879 Have I changed since then? 74 00:04:58,048 --> 00:04:59,174 I don't think so. 75 00:05:00,550 --> 00:05:01,927 I'm always the same. 76 00:05:02,677 --> 00:05:03,678 An optimist. 77 00:05:03,845 --> 00:05:05,013 But why? 78 00:05:06,264 --> 00:05:07,640 I ask myself. 79 00:05:07,641 --> 00:05:11,561 When I look closely at things, 80 00:05:12,813 --> 00:05:14,189 I lose all my optimism. 81 00:05:14,356 --> 00:05:17,150 Is it... Is it all just an illusion? 82 00:05:19,778 --> 00:05:24,908 Is attending the national theatre school just another game? 83 00:05:26,201 --> 00:05:28,703 Am I kidding myself? No, it's not a game. 84 00:05:31,832 --> 00:05:36,336 The map of Quebec. Montreal, right here. 85 00:05:38,088 --> 00:05:42,843 Such a tiny city in this huge space, in this huge country. 86 00:05:48,306 --> 00:05:50,809 I want to travel there, 87 00:05:51,309 --> 00:05:53,478 there, and there... 88 00:05:54,688 --> 00:05:57,107 All the way to there. 89 00:06:00,068 --> 00:06:02,195 I want to see things. I'm... 90 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,991 Very, very drawn to all those lives, 91 00:06:07,242 --> 00:06:10,078 the people, eskimos... 92 00:06:11,204 --> 00:06:12,998 Different ethnic groups. 93 00:06:15,625 --> 00:06:16,811 [Voice over] I don't know anymore. 94 00:06:16,835 --> 00:06:19,004 After the national theatre school, 95 00:06:19,170 --> 00:06:22,757 I'll go to Europe and live in Paris. 96 00:06:23,133 --> 00:06:24,593 - [Voice over] Sounds about right. 97 00:06:24,843 --> 00:06:26,636 When anglophones learn French, 98 00:06:27,637 --> 00:06:28,638 it's to go to Paris. 99 00:06:28,972 --> 00:06:30,812 - [Voice over] Not me, Claude. - You know that. 100 00:06:31,016 --> 00:06:33,518 Anyway, I'm not anglophone. I'm Jewish. 101 00:06:34,102 --> 00:06:35,270 And now I'm playing. 102 00:06:37,022 --> 00:06:39,274 [Voice over] Do I really look like Nana? 103 00:06:39,608 --> 00:06:42,861 - [Voice over] What does it matter? - It's ridiculous to care about that stuff. 104 00:06:43,028 --> 00:06:46,114 - [Voice over] You never want to play, Claude. You're no fun. 105 00:06:46,531 --> 00:06:48,366 - [Voice over] I don't want to be fun. 106 00:06:51,995 --> 00:06:54,039 (Train rumbling) 107 00:06:54,372 --> 00:06:55,372 - [Voice over] Claude. 108 00:06:58,126 --> 00:07:00,128 (Jazz music) 109 00:07:36,915 --> 00:07:38,290 - [Voice over] I spend my time going in and out 110 00:07:38,291 --> 00:07:40,085 for all kinds of pointless stuff... 111 00:07:41,670 --> 00:07:45,966 Or under the false pretense of looking for work. 112 00:07:49,928 --> 00:07:51,930 (Car driving) 113 00:08:00,063 --> 00:08:01,731 I lead a superficial life. 114 00:08:04,484 --> 00:08:06,486 That is to say, I have no real thoughts. 115 00:08:07,821 --> 00:08:09,114 I have no real life. 116 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:11,324 Just ideas. 117 00:08:13,201 --> 00:08:15,203 (Traffic noise) 118 00:08:40,395 --> 00:08:43,189 - [Voice over] Today, we're reading brecht. 119 00:08:44,566 --> 00:08:46,693 I'm behind on the others because 120 00:08:47,902 --> 00:08:49,404 my accent is so bad. 121 00:08:50,321 --> 00:08:55,201 If I don't lose it, I'll be stuck playing character parts. 122 00:08:59,581 --> 00:09:03,167 - [Voice over] Someone once said, "the insipid routine of daily life 123 00:09:03,168 --> 00:09:04,836 is my only constant." 124 00:09:05,420 --> 00:09:09,840 North America's biggest French daily. Circulation: 300,000. 125 00:09:09,841 --> 00:09:11,675 (Background chatter) 126 00:09:11,676 --> 00:09:13,720 That's my most fallacious pretence. 127 00:09:16,473 --> 00:09:19,851 As allais says, "money makes poverty bearable." 128 00:09:20,602 --> 00:09:22,603 (Jazz music continues) 129 00:09:22,604 --> 00:09:24,606 (Shouting, car noise) 130 00:09:29,861 --> 00:09:32,071 - Have you read Simone de beauvoir? 131 00:09:32,072 --> 00:09:32,947 - No. - Everything she says about... 132 00:09:32,947 --> 00:09:33,490 - No. 133 00:09:33,698 --> 00:09:34,991 (Train rumble) 134 00:09:35,867 --> 00:09:37,202 You've read Simone de beauvoir? 135 00:09:37,452 --> 00:09:39,245 - Yes, a bit, but I don't really like her, 136 00:09:39,412 --> 00:09:41,371 because I believe that, ultimately, 137 00:09:41,372 --> 00:09:43,708 men are still superior to women. 138 00:09:45,376 --> 00:09:46,376 - Why? 139 00:09:49,214 --> 00:09:50,507 - Because they're men. 140 00:09:51,633 --> 00:09:54,010 And we're women. 141 00:09:55,220 --> 00:10:00,517 And the world is made for... People are made for... 142 00:10:00,975 --> 00:10:02,769 - But what do you expect from a man? 143 00:10:03,144 --> 00:10:04,478 - What do I expect from a man? 144 00:10:04,479 --> 00:10:05,479 - Yes. 145 00:10:07,774 --> 00:10:08,900 - That he loves me. 146 00:10:12,153 --> 00:10:13,863 - Between your thoughts and... 147 00:10:14,781 --> 00:10:17,283 And your actions, there's some kind of disconnect. 148 00:10:21,788 --> 00:10:26,126 Instead of hanging around at the national theatre school... 149 00:10:27,502 --> 00:10:28,503 With your friends... 150 00:10:29,295 --> 00:10:30,255 - But what... 151 00:10:30,256 --> 00:10:32,173 I wish you'd spend more time here. 152 00:10:33,133 --> 00:10:35,927 - But I've got to go to class. - What can I do? 153 00:10:36,803 --> 00:10:39,931 - For me, acting is basically doing nothing. 154 00:10:40,181 --> 00:10:42,559 It's just killing time. 155 00:10:43,184 --> 00:10:46,062 - That's not true. - We're doing something. 156 00:10:51,693 --> 00:10:55,155 What about you? Do you actually do anything? 157 00:10:56,322 --> 00:10:59,826 - I don't do a thing, but I don't have any ambition to do anyhting, either. 158 00:11:02,036 --> 00:11:02,954 But I... 159 00:11:02,955 --> 00:11:05,957 I feel like you're living in a utopia, a dream world. 160 00:11:08,293 --> 00:11:09,293 - Yes, that's true. 161 00:11:10,461 --> 00:11:12,045 But what about you... 162 00:11:12,046 --> 00:11:14,089 All your political ideas? 163 00:11:14,090 --> 00:11:15,841 Aren't they dreams too? 164 00:11:15,842 --> 00:11:17,844 (Train crossing bells ringing) 165 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:31,441 Come on, answer me. 166 00:11:32,692 --> 00:11:34,736 - I don't think they're dreams. 167 00:11:35,445 --> 00:11:38,865 - What, then? They're not reality. - They don't exist. 168 00:11:40,992 --> 00:11:41,992 They're dreams. 169 00:11:43,119 --> 00:11:45,872 An ideal. And ideals are dreams. 170 00:11:47,957 --> 00:11:49,626 Laurendeau, dunton and ouimet are traitors 171 00:11:49,792 --> 00:11:51,753 (indistinct radio show sounds) 172 00:11:52,337 --> 00:11:54,097 - [Voice over] In the morning, I get up late. 173 00:11:54,631 --> 00:11:55,882 We all get up late. 174 00:11:56,883 --> 00:11:58,885 Because we all go to bed late. 175 00:11:59,510 --> 00:12:02,513 Toulouse earns his living doing magic tricks. 176 00:12:02,889 --> 00:12:05,850 Jean-Paul illustrates children's books. 177 00:12:06,267 --> 00:12:07,644 (Laughter) 178 00:12:10,647 --> 00:12:12,773 - Is Barbara coming over this morning? 179 00:12:12,774 --> 00:12:14,234 - Don't know. 180 00:12:17,153 --> 00:12:20,156 Jean-Paul often has people over for breakfast. 181 00:12:22,909 --> 00:12:24,369 In the morning, I don't talk much. 182 00:12:27,288 --> 00:12:28,414 (Indistinct voice) 183 00:12:29,040 --> 00:12:31,167 - Anything funny in the express? 184 00:12:31,417 --> 00:12:32,417 - Never. 185 00:12:33,878 --> 00:12:36,297 - Toulouse, do a magic trick. - Entertain me. 186 00:12:36,631 --> 00:12:38,633 (Playful music) 187 00:12:38,883 --> 00:12:40,677 -As if magic wasn't miraculous. 188 00:12:41,052 --> 00:12:42,302 It's what Toulouse does every night, 189 00:12:42,303 --> 00:12:43,680 when he starts his show. 190 00:12:44,931 --> 00:12:46,933 He thinks he's a god. 191 00:12:48,142 --> 00:12:49,309 (Napkin crumpling) 192 00:12:49,310 --> 00:12:50,561 No joke... 193 00:12:51,312 --> 00:12:53,272 (Newspaper sounds) 194 00:12:53,273 --> 00:12:54,690 - Hold this while I... 195 00:12:54,691 --> 00:12:55,900 - What's this? 196 00:12:57,026 --> 00:12:58,152 (Laughter) 197 00:12:58,403 --> 00:12:59,403 - Thanks. 198 00:13:00,071 --> 00:13:01,197 It's not my best trick. 199 00:13:04,701 --> 00:13:05,951 - We know! 200 00:13:05,952 --> 00:13:07,078 (Laughter) 201 00:13:14,711 --> 00:13:16,712 (Door opening) 202 00:13:16,713 --> 00:13:19,299 - Hello! - How's it going? 203 00:13:23,303 --> 00:13:24,303 - Is this coffee? 204 00:13:25,096 --> 00:13:27,598 - Barbara brought coffee. - And croissants! 205 00:13:28,182 --> 00:13:29,600 (Laughter) 206 00:13:30,226 --> 00:13:31,853 - Barbara brought us coffee. 207 00:13:32,020 --> 00:13:33,980 (Plates and glasses moving) 208 00:13:36,566 --> 00:13:38,442 - [Voice over] I make the effort to come over every day, 209 00:13:38,443 --> 00:13:40,862 but you never even seem to notice me. 210 00:13:41,112 --> 00:13:43,072 (Indistinct chatter) 211 00:13:46,576 --> 00:13:48,578 (Horns honking, cars driving) 212 00:13:56,461 --> 00:13:58,463 (Footsteps) 213 00:14:02,383 --> 00:14:04,543 -[Voice over] I don't want to become that sociable guy. 214 00:14:05,887 --> 00:14:07,722 Because the more you're controlled by society, 215 00:14:08,639 --> 00:14:10,016 the less human you become. 216 00:14:25,740 --> 00:14:27,784 (Office chatter, typewriters) 217 00:14:28,117 --> 00:14:30,077 "Constant contact" between mm. Pearson and Johnson 218 00:14:31,537 --> 00:14:33,498 expo 67 has passed. Does it have a future? 219 00:14:39,170 --> 00:14:41,010 Why are there no Canadian films in our cinemas? 220 00:14:41,047 --> 00:14:44,800 - The problem is accepting the need 221 00:14:44,801 --> 00:14:45,801 (typewriters) 222 00:14:45,802 --> 00:14:48,763 To work with people you might consider... 223 00:14:50,306 --> 00:14:51,306 Sellouts. 224 00:14:52,683 --> 00:14:54,435 You give me an article. 225 00:14:55,061 --> 00:14:56,687 Let's take a look. 226 00:15:00,566 --> 00:15:02,693 How did you research it? 227 00:15:06,697 --> 00:15:10,201 It's from a book, right? It's a concept... 228 00:15:10,660 --> 00:15:15,456 But every day, the streets are full of people with whom you disagree. 229 00:15:16,416 --> 00:15:17,708 So what do you do? 230 00:15:18,668 --> 00:15:20,044 No, this is no good. 231 00:15:23,172 --> 00:15:29,095 The thing is problems do not exist as... 232 00:15:30,221 --> 00:15:31,222 An absolute. 233 00:15:32,598 --> 00:15:36,310 They're part of the real world. 234 00:15:38,229 --> 00:15:40,231 It's that... you're drawing... 235 00:15:41,566 --> 00:15:42,983 You're drawing from books. 236 00:15:42,984 --> 00:15:43,985 You're coming from... 237 00:15:45,236 --> 00:15:47,363 Pure, raw emotion. 238 00:15:48,197 --> 00:15:53,077 You've got to connect with bankers, 239 00:15:53,828 --> 00:15:55,246 board of trade guys... 240 00:15:56,873 --> 00:15:59,625 Guys from all over. 241 00:16:00,376 --> 00:16:03,504 - But if my research is accurate, aren't you censoring me? 242 00:16:07,341 --> 00:16:09,259 - No, it's not censorship. 243 00:16:09,260 --> 00:16:13,848 Because an article that's based in reality, that reports facts... 244 00:16:14,015 --> 00:16:15,391 - How about history? 245 00:16:15,975 --> 00:16:18,978 - Yes, history, maybe... history is, of course, reality. 246 00:16:19,145 --> 00:16:23,649 But I mean, an article based in reality 247 00:16:25,651 --> 00:16:28,029 can be published. 248 00:16:29,655 --> 00:16:31,657 - Like an article about secularism? 249 00:16:32,158 --> 00:16:34,160 - An article... 250 00:16:34,327 --> 00:16:37,163 An article about a problem that concerns a majority of people. 251 00:16:37,747 --> 00:16:40,124 But you're coming to me with an article 252 00:16:40,291 --> 00:16:42,125 that says, "I want to change the world.“ 253 00:16:42,126 --> 00:16:43,293 but how do you change it? 254 00:16:43,294 --> 00:16:45,296 What world are you changing? 255 00:16:45,922 --> 00:16:47,423 Are you familiar with this world? 256 00:16:48,382 --> 00:16:50,384 All I'm asking is that you understand it. 257 00:16:51,928 --> 00:16:54,805 That you can say, it's like this and that. 258 00:16:56,933 --> 00:16:58,767 Those facts are important. 259 00:16:58,768 --> 00:17:04,065 More important, in fact, than what your article says. 260 00:17:04,690 --> 00:17:06,734 You bring me your ideas... 261 00:17:08,027 --> 00:17:10,112 About how to change the world. 262 00:17:10,279 --> 00:17:15,117 But before you can change the world, you need to understand how it works. 263 00:17:16,744 --> 00:17:20,414 There should be a column where 20-year-olds 264 00:17:20,581 --> 00:17:23,041 say what they think. 265 00:17:23,042 --> 00:17:25,044 But, it's very particular. 266 00:17:26,879 --> 00:17:29,882 That reality, of being 20-years-old, it looks different... 267 00:17:30,758 --> 00:17:33,009 Your world at twenty is not like mine. 268 00:17:33,010 --> 00:17:35,263 It's not the prevailing reality. 269 00:17:38,891 --> 00:17:40,059 (Cards knocking on desk) 270 00:17:40,393 --> 00:17:42,812 But what can you do? That's the way it is. 271 00:17:44,272 --> 00:17:46,189 But one day, one day, 272 00:17:46,190 --> 00:17:48,692 that may all change. 273 00:17:48,693 --> 00:17:50,318 And I'm not talking about you getting older. 274 00:17:50,319 --> 00:17:53,322 I'm talking about the society you're dreaming of. 275 00:17:54,323 --> 00:17:59,036 Maybe then... It'll be possible... 276 00:17:59,787 --> 00:18:02,331 To stay 20 until you're 60. 277 00:18:05,042 --> 00:18:06,168 Who knows when? 278 00:18:06,919 --> 00:18:11,340 -[Voice over] They want people to stifle their dreams. To maintain the status quo. 279 00:18:12,717 --> 00:18:14,802 (Jazz music) 280 00:18:31,736 --> 00:18:35,364 - Why so hostile? - What have I done? 281 00:18:35,531 --> 00:18:37,867 All I've done is love you. 282 00:18:40,578 --> 00:18:42,246 - You really think I'm hostile? 283 00:18:42,413 --> 00:18:43,998 - Yes, it really feels that way. 284 00:18:44,832 --> 00:18:47,501 Just because I don't share your ideas... 285 00:18:48,502 --> 00:18:52,340 Or share them completely. 286 00:18:52,506 --> 00:18:54,508 (Train rumbling) 287 00:18:55,134 --> 00:18:58,512 - You can see I'm always stressed. 288 00:18:58,971 --> 00:19:00,139 But I... 289 00:19:01,349 --> 00:19:04,894 I don't know, you're so easygoing. It gets on my nerves. 290 00:19:05,061 --> 00:19:07,229 Maybe that's why I'm hostile. 291 00:19:08,397 --> 00:19:13,402 - You never laugh. Never joke around. You're not so happy. 292 00:19:15,905 --> 00:19:17,239 - Are you, you're happy? 293 00:19:17,406 --> 00:19:18,783 - Yes, I think so. 294 00:19:21,786 --> 00:19:24,246 - If I'm no fun to be with, why stay with me? 295 00:19:25,122 --> 00:19:26,415 - Because I love you. 296 00:19:30,419 --> 00:19:36,050 We discuss ideas all the time. Why can't we take action? 297 00:19:37,802 --> 00:19:40,805 Even in Latin, there's a saying. 298 00:19:44,141 --> 00:19:45,184 - What saying? 299 00:19:45,768 --> 00:19:48,269 - Well, I don't remember the Latin, 300 00:19:48,270 --> 00:19:52,817 but I think it's "he who hesitates is lost." 301 00:19:52,983 --> 00:19:54,694 [Voice over] He who hesitates is lost. 302 00:19:56,445 --> 00:19:59,156 You know, in the competition with... 303 00:20:00,908 --> 00:20:02,284 Atlanta? 304 00:20:04,787 --> 00:20:08,456 There was a guy, a young guy, 305 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:12,795 who thought he could win, but he hesitated and lost. 306 00:20:14,547 --> 00:20:16,590 (Jazz music continues) 307 00:20:17,717 --> 00:20:18,717 - [Voice over] Barbara, 308 00:20:19,593 --> 00:20:22,680 at school I was educated by hypocritical priests. 309 00:20:23,597 --> 00:20:27,184 They taught us about faith, but not how to think. 310 00:20:28,602 --> 00:20:30,922 Don't you see everything I must learn before taking action? 311 00:20:31,105 --> 00:20:34,567 - [Voice over] No, Claude. I feel just as committed as you are. 312 00:20:34,734 --> 00:20:37,361 But I'm not as hung-up as you are. 313 00:20:38,362 --> 00:20:39,363 - I know. 314 00:20:40,322 --> 00:20:44,452 - If nothing changes, we Quebecers will never fulfill our potential. 315 00:20:49,832 --> 00:20:52,835 That minister didn't know how true his words were 316 00:20:53,753 --> 00:20:55,087 when he said this: 317 00:20:56,380 --> 00:20:58,632 "Everything seems to happen by chance, 318 00:20:59,258 --> 00:21:01,093 then suddenly everything seems decisive." 319 00:21:04,346 --> 00:21:08,267 As Marx said, "men make their own history." 320 00:21:17,860 --> 00:21:21,530 I borrow two bucks from Jean-Paul, who already owes Toulouse 50. 321 00:21:26,035 --> 00:21:28,120 (Train rumbling) 322 00:21:42,134 --> 00:21:43,427 (Honking) 323 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:46,305 (Piano and singing in background) 324 00:21:47,431 --> 00:21:50,142 Smart people are always doing stupid things. 325 00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:53,186 I'm not talking about the theatre. I mean in real life. 326 00:21:53,187 --> 00:21:55,146 (Bags dropping) 327 00:21:55,147 --> 00:21:57,441 - Hello! - Hello, how's it going? 328 00:21:58,567 --> 00:21:59,901 - Good, good, good. 329 00:21:59,902 --> 00:22:01,821 (Bag shuffling) 330 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:03,072 - How's the theatre? 331 00:22:03,572 --> 00:22:04,532 - The theater is going well. 332 00:22:04,533 --> 00:22:08,327 Today, Mr. Sabourin said I'm making progress and losing my accent. 333 00:22:12,081 --> 00:22:13,081 - What are you reading? 334 00:22:13,582 --> 00:22:14,582 - La presse. 335 00:22:15,084 --> 00:22:17,168 - Anything new? - Seriously? 336 00:22:17,169 --> 00:22:18,336 - What? 337 00:22:18,337 --> 00:22:20,339 (Newspaper rustling) 338 00:22:21,048 --> 00:22:23,928 - [Voice over] Here are five guys who messed up badly, but didn't flinch. 339 00:22:24,009 --> 00:22:27,555 "Near monopoly on textbooks: Authors had conflict of interest." 340 00:22:27,805 --> 00:22:28,848 - That's terrible. 341 00:22:29,598 --> 00:22:32,100 - "Commission of inquiry into the book trade 342 00:22:32,101 --> 00:22:34,812 denounces dpi officials and consultants" 343 00:22:35,980 --> 00:22:37,731 - you know what the dpi is? - No. 344 00:22:38,357 --> 00:22:40,192 It's the department of public instruction. 345 00:22:40,484 --> 00:22:42,486 "Unfair competition from communities..." 346 00:22:44,446 --> 00:22:45,864 Want to hear more? 347 00:22:45,865 --> 00:22:47,116 - Go ahead. 348 00:22:48,492 --> 00:22:51,369 - "Some of the leading figures 349 00:22:51,370 --> 00:22:54,581 in the field of education, religion and publishing..." 350 00:22:54,582 --> 00:22:57,376 - Next week, we're going to start working on a play. 351 00:22:58,127 --> 00:22:59,127 - About what? 352 00:22:59,503 --> 00:23:00,504 - Brecht. 353 00:23:02,256 --> 00:23:06,343 I hope you'll come. You'll see the theatre has changed. 354 00:23:07,344 --> 00:23:08,846 - Some of the leading figures 355 00:23:09,013 --> 00:23:13,350 in the field of education, religion, and publishing. 356 00:23:13,517 --> 00:23:17,021 The department of public instruction and the catholic committee 357 00:23:17,187 --> 00:23:20,608 have been implicated in this massive conflict of interest 358 00:23:20,774 --> 00:23:23,902 announced today by the report of the commission of inquiry 359 00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,237 into the Quebec book trade." 360 00:23:28,032 --> 00:23:30,618 - They should be ashamed. - "According to the report, 361 00:23:30,784 --> 00:23:35,289 this situation has seriously hurt the quality of education in Quebec." 362 00:23:36,290 --> 00:23:40,920 [Voice over] The system isn't always hurt by scandal. Anyway, it's legal. 363 00:23:41,754 --> 00:23:43,255 "And the expenses were considerable." 364 00:23:43,547 --> 00:23:46,008 - Were secular schools involved? 365 00:23:46,175 --> 00:23:47,801 - There aren't any. 366 00:23:50,679 --> 00:23:52,056 - Well, I didn't know that... 367 00:23:52,222 --> 00:23:54,433 - Look, cost of inquiry: One million. 368 00:23:55,059 --> 00:23:57,018 - You say I know nothing about politics, 369 00:23:57,019 --> 00:24:00,022 but you refuse to listen to what I'm saying about the theater... 370 00:24:02,650 --> 00:24:03,943 - A priest was beaten... 371 00:24:04,568 --> 00:24:06,694 - How can you be so prejudiced? 372 00:24:06,695 --> 00:24:10,199 - I'm not. Damn! It's right here in black and white. 373 00:24:11,575 --> 00:24:13,577 It says right here, $199,000... 374 00:24:14,703 --> 00:24:16,640 - I'm listening! - The theatre isn't so important. 375 00:24:16,664 --> 00:24:18,040 - It is important. 376 00:24:18,958 --> 00:24:20,167 - It's outdated art. 377 00:24:20,709 --> 00:24:23,337 - I can admit I know nothing about politics. 378 00:24:23,796 --> 00:24:25,798 (Rehearsal chatter in background) 379 00:24:29,093 --> 00:24:30,427 - Hey, the rhinoceros party... 380 00:24:32,054 --> 00:24:34,932 - [Voice over] When you talk about the theatre, you talk nonsense. 381 00:24:35,182 --> 00:24:38,602 You lump everything together. You make no distinctions. 382 00:24:38,978 --> 00:24:40,979 It's like if I said film 383 00:24:40,980 --> 00:24:43,314 hadn't come of age after watching an nfb film. 384 00:24:43,315 --> 00:24:45,191 (Traffic noise) 385 00:24:45,192 --> 00:24:48,072 - [Voice over] That's not what I'm talking about, I'm talking about life. 386 00:24:48,612 --> 00:24:49,946 We're all in the same boat. 387 00:24:49,947 --> 00:24:51,114 (Background chatter) 388 00:24:51,115 --> 00:24:53,366 It's not until we're forty, after we've given up the fight, 389 00:24:53,367 --> 00:24:54,487 that we're allowed to speak. 390 00:24:55,703 --> 00:24:58,747 That's the system. There are no opportunities. 391 00:25:00,708 --> 00:25:04,086 - [Voice over] I know a guy at a paper who can help you if you want. 392 00:25:04,628 --> 00:25:06,379 - [Voice over] Waste of time. 393 00:25:06,380 --> 00:25:09,133 I know him and I know what he'll say. 394 00:25:13,887 --> 00:25:16,765 (Elevator door closing) 395 00:25:19,143 --> 00:25:23,022 Today it's life itself that cuts you off from life. 396 00:25:38,287 --> 00:25:40,289 (Elevator door closing) 397 00:25:50,132 --> 00:25:52,134 (Footsteps on staircase) 398 00:25:58,807 --> 00:26:01,435 (Office chatter, typwriters) 399 00:26:30,589 --> 00:26:33,217 - A revolution doesn't happen overnight. That's what we think. 400 00:26:33,717 --> 00:26:38,597 We think revolutions come by express post and other luxuries like that. 401 00:26:39,348 --> 00:26:41,850 But that's not how it works. Revolutions happen slowly. 402 00:26:42,309 --> 00:26:47,355 Gradually, through compromise, and you see what you can accomplish. 403 00:26:47,356 --> 00:26:50,192 At first, you don't know what you want to do. 404 00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:51,359 All you have is an idea. 405 00:26:51,944 --> 00:26:54,321 But what if it was the other way around? 406 00:26:55,197 --> 00:26:56,949 If your action gave you ideas. 407 00:26:57,449 --> 00:26:59,576 Let's say you start from scratch. 408 00:27:00,369 --> 00:27:02,371 Let's say you're sent to organize farmers, 409 00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:05,999 without knowing their issues, without knowing anything. 410 00:27:06,834 --> 00:27:08,835 You go and find problems with education, 411 00:27:08,836 --> 00:27:10,838 small farms, a ton of other things... 412 00:27:11,088 --> 00:27:13,215 So you start to get an idea. 413 00:27:14,508 --> 00:27:17,761 Journalism is a bit like that. 414 00:27:19,221 --> 00:27:21,597 You jump in blindly. You have to get a new start. 415 00:27:21,598 --> 00:27:25,226 You're looking for news to inform your readers, 416 00:27:25,227 --> 00:27:27,146 people you don't know. 417 00:27:27,646 --> 00:27:30,858 But you don't own the news. 418 00:27:31,525 --> 00:27:35,529 Neither does the paper. It's the public's. 419 00:27:36,488 --> 00:27:40,284 And how will you find it? By getting to know the people. 420 00:27:40,450 --> 00:27:43,162 Then you're going to have to dig and dig. Do the work. 421 00:27:43,328 --> 00:27:46,748 And after a few years, you'll be on to something. 422 00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:50,544 - At some point, you want to convey your rebellion. 423 00:27:51,879 --> 00:27:54,673 They won't ask. You have to tell them 424 00:27:54,923 --> 00:27:56,424 like a press release. 425 00:27:56,425 --> 00:27:57,176 - Yes, but... 426 00:27:57,177 --> 00:27:59,261 - And if the papers won't do that, then what? 427 00:27:59,428 --> 00:28:02,264 - I agree, but you've got to plan it. 428 00:28:02,681 --> 00:28:06,934 I'm part of the rebellion. Someone who isn't... 429 00:28:06,935 --> 00:28:08,436 Might as well throw in the towel. 430 00:28:08,437 --> 00:28:11,398 - Maybe, after 12 years at the paper, you've gone a bit soft. 431 00:28:13,317 --> 00:28:14,317 - Maybe I have, a little. 432 00:28:14,568 --> 00:28:16,569 But on the other hand, 433 00:28:16,570 --> 00:28:20,574 if I hadn't become a journalist, I'd have been acting alone. 434 00:28:21,325 --> 00:28:23,702 All very fine and heroic... 435 00:28:24,203 --> 00:28:26,580 Maybe I've lost a bit of my edge. 436 00:28:27,456 --> 00:28:31,042 But journalism, I don't know who said it, but... 437 00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:36,464 Isn't journalism about defiance? I should find another way... 438 00:28:36,465 --> 00:28:39,176 - Of course, why wouldn't it be to convey rebellion. 439 00:28:39,343 --> 00:28:44,222 I agree, but... it takes planning. You've got to join forces. 440 00:28:44,223 --> 00:28:47,100 - But after all that planning, you've lost the guts to do anything. 441 00:28:47,851 --> 00:28:49,978 Because I'm sure you wouldn't do it now. 442 00:28:51,855 --> 00:28:52,855 - Listen... 443 00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:56,108 After 15 years, who knows? 444 00:28:56,109 --> 00:28:58,486 - That's it. I'm not waiting 15 years. 445 00:28:58,487 --> 00:28:59,321 That doesn't interest me. 446 00:28:59,322 --> 00:29:01,113 - You might have to wait fifteen years! 447 00:29:01,114 --> 00:29:02,514 - It'll be up to someone else, then. 448 00:29:03,325 --> 00:29:04,867 - No, it won't be up to someone else... 449 00:29:04,868 --> 00:29:07,496 - I knew it. - It's called planning. 450 00:29:08,705 --> 00:29:10,831 Putting money aside for ten years, 451 00:29:10,832 --> 00:29:12,584 so you can buy a car. 452 00:29:17,130 --> 00:29:20,717 While the young live in an idealistic, but hostile, world, 453 00:29:21,760 --> 00:29:24,011 they talk nonsense with angels and devils, 454 00:29:24,012 --> 00:29:25,221 (traffic noise) 455 00:29:25,222 --> 00:29:26,974 While waiting for miracles. 456 00:29:28,392 --> 00:29:31,478 They accept the way things are. 457 00:29:33,230 --> 00:29:35,482 They don't prepare for what's coming. 458 00:29:37,776 --> 00:29:41,280 They care more about security than their passions. 459 00:29:41,780 --> 00:29:43,156 (Footsteps) 460 00:29:45,409 --> 00:29:49,997 "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after." 461 00:29:50,914 --> 00:29:52,916 (Honking) 462 00:29:59,256 --> 00:30:01,258 (Trafic whitsle) 463 00:30:02,509 --> 00:30:04,511 (Footsteps) 464 00:30:06,555 --> 00:30:08,557 (Newspaper rustle) 465 00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:18,817 (Traffic noise) 466 00:30:20,902 --> 00:30:22,904 (Cash register bell) 467 00:30:26,033 --> 00:30:27,659 (Car peels out) 468 00:30:31,705 --> 00:30:33,707 (Mall music) 469 00:30:38,045 --> 00:30:40,047 (Footsteps) 470 00:30:57,981 --> 00:31:02,194 - [On TV] Study of the 46 sections of bill 60 began in Quebec city today. 471 00:31:02,361 --> 00:31:04,987 The united national mla for the district of missisquoi, 472 00:31:04,988 --> 00:31:06,572 Mr. Jean-Jacques bertrand, 473 00:31:06,573 --> 00:31:12,621 moved to include a definition of the education minister's rights. 474 00:31:13,372 --> 00:31:14,956 The opposition argued 475 00:31:15,123 --> 00:31:17,376 this will protect the rights of 476 00:31:17,542 --> 00:31:19,002 neutral or nondenominational groups. 477 00:31:19,503 --> 00:31:22,339 Mr. Jean lesage responded that this 478 00:31:22,506 --> 00:31:25,384 will set the tone for the whole law. 479 00:31:26,134 --> 00:31:28,720 The French-language secular movement 480 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:33,141 argues the bill 60 authorizes the government to run church schools. 481 00:31:33,767 --> 00:31:35,644 Mr. Albert gervais, union nationale mla 482 00:31:35,811 --> 00:31:37,520 for the district of montmorency, 483 00:31:37,521 --> 00:31:40,398 explained to our reporter what he called 484 00:31:40,399 --> 00:31:43,652 the "anti-Democratic nature" of bill 60. 485 00:31:45,987 --> 00:31:48,155 The Quebec institute of chartered accountants 486 00:31:48,156 --> 00:31:50,157 suggested that the federal government... 487 00:31:50,158 --> 00:31:52,034 - [Voice over] You never do what I want. 488 00:31:52,035 --> 00:31:54,538 You find all sorts of reasons not to make me happy. 489 00:31:55,539 --> 00:31:56,899 - [Voice over] You see, Barbara... 490 00:31:57,916 --> 00:32:01,294 I judge you based on your actions. 491 00:32:01,545 --> 00:32:02,545 In certain ways. 492 00:32:03,547 --> 00:32:06,508 I approve or condemn you 493 00:32:07,634 --> 00:32:09,177 based on how I feel about you. 494 00:32:10,137 --> 00:32:11,137 - [Voice over] $0... 495 00:32:11,805 --> 00:32:13,306 It's because you don't love me. 496 00:32:13,682 --> 00:32:15,684 You never approve of what I say. 497 00:32:15,851 --> 00:32:17,436 Because it bugs you that I'm right. 498 00:32:17,811 --> 00:32:18,812 And you know it. 499 00:32:19,938 --> 00:32:22,315 You tell me to forget my ideals. 500 00:32:22,691 --> 00:32:24,567 But you're not willing to forget yours. 501 00:32:24,568 --> 00:32:25,818 (Jazz music) 502 00:32:25,819 --> 00:32:27,859 - [Voice over] You obviously don't know me, Barbara. 503 00:32:30,407 --> 00:32:32,826 You anglos don't understand us. 504 00:32:34,202 --> 00:32:35,912 You look down on us. 505 00:32:37,789 --> 00:32:39,541 - Okay, if you say so. 506 00:32:40,584 --> 00:32:42,210 - Strange coincidence. 507 00:32:43,420 --> 00:32:44,838 James Baldwin says 508 00:32:45,589 --> 00:32:48,467 that black Americans expect Jews to understand them 509 00:32:49,217 --> 00:32:50,677 because they've also suffered. 510 00:32:50,844 --> 00:32:51,844 - [Voice over] $0? 511 00:32:52,929 --> 00:32:55,849 Rights belong to individuals, not races. 512 00:32:56,349 --> 00:32:58,852 - [Voice over] Yes, but when races are denied rights, 513 00:32:59,811 --> 00:33:01,188 individuals are too. 514 00:33:02,439 --> 00:33:04,691 - That's very good. Think so? 515 00:33:04,858 --> 00:33:06,178 - [Voice over] You talk nonsense. 516 00:33:06,818 --> 00:33:08,361 - [Voice over] No, you do. 517 00:33:13,116 --> 00:33:15,202 - Sorry. I'll start over. 518 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:23,376 Not at all? 519 00:33:33,762 --> 00:33:35,639 (Engine revving) 520 00:33:37,891 --> 00:33:39,893 (Jazz music continues) 521 00:33:45,899 --> 00:33:49,277 "Talent is good... Experience is better" 522 00:33:50,403 --> 00:33:52,043 - [voice over] When I think about my life, 523 00:33:54,282 --> 00:33:56,034 it's like I'm doomed to failure. 524 00:34:00,163 --> 00:34:02,165 (Train rambling) 525 00:34:25,355 --> 00:34:26,940 We live makeshift lives. 526 00:34:28,108 --> 00:34:32,070 - [Voice over] Your thoughts are always so gloomy. You seem to enjoy it. 527 00:34:35,365 --> 00:34:38,326 I'm in class. We'll grab a bite later. Barbara 528 00:34:54,593 --> 00:34:58,138 - [Radio] According to the Muslim league, 529 00:34:58,305 --> 00:35:01,890 muslims expect a fixed representative proportion 530 00:35:01,891 --> 00:35:06,146 in any future goverment created after independence... 531 00:35:06,313 --> 00:35:09,858 - [Voice over] You know the type who get by. 532 00:35:10,609 --> 00:35:12,027 They get along. 533 00:35:12,527 --> 00:35:13,527 - [Voice over] I know. 534 00:35:16,656 --> 00:35:19,159 Maheu says we must change the social structure. 535 00:35:21,911 --> 00:35:25,540 That it's hard for us because society is fighting us. 536 00:35:25,915 --> 00:35:30,420 - What do you expect? Look who owns the big magazines. 537 00:35:31,046 --> 00:35:34,758 Big capital. Big money. 538 00:35:35,050 --> 00:35:37,760 They're not really interested in our ideas. 539 00:35:37,761 --> 00:35:38,802 (Machine noise) 540 00:35:38,803 --> 00:35:41,431 We have to make it on our own. 541 00:35:42,015 --> 00:35:43,183 Obviously, it won't... 542 00:35:43,350 --> 00:35:45,060 - First you need a job. 543 00:35:45,435 --> 00:35:47,687 -But remember, 544 00:35:47,854 --> 00:35:53,193 there's no point trying to reconcile what you believe with your job. 545 00:35:54,694 --> 00:35:59,783 In this society, you never make it by being yourself. 546 00:36:00,575 --> 00:36:01,785 This society... 547 00:36:02,410 --> 00:36:05,455 It changes you, forces its rules on you. 548 00:36:06,414 --> 00:36:09,709 You have to play the game, but cheat at the same time. 549 00:36:10,085 --> 00:36:11,710 - Easier said than done. 550 00:36:11,711 --> 00:36:14,922 - Some guys got blacklisted from papers, 551 00:36:14,923 --> 00:36:18,301 and the same thing in radio. 552 00:36:18,468 --> 00:36:22,971 They were told to drop our magazines... 553 00:36:22,972 --> 00:36:24,933 Or lose their job. 554 00:36:27,227 --> 00:36:31,356 That's what's so sickening. The young become unemployable. 555 00:36:32,732 --> 00:36:34,734 (Machine noise continues) 556 00:36:38,113 --> 00:36:40,115 (Distant traffic noise) 557 00:36:41,241 --> 00:36:45,120 - [Voice over] Society talks about democracy, but it's still everyone for themselves. 558 00:36:45,995 --> 00:36:47,330 We fight for scraps. 559 00:36:50,333 --> 00:36:54,087 - [Voice over] But there are people everywhere who have to do what they don't want. 560 00:36:56,756 --> 00:36:58,717 - [Voice over] And it's the same everywhere. 561 00:36:59,718 --> 00:37:04,639 Nobody listens to colonized people until they revolt. 562 00:37:06,516 --> 00:37:12,647 Without bloodshed, they think they can get away with anything. 563 00:37:14,149 --> 00:37:15,233 (Horn honks) 564 00:37:19,154 --> 00:37:21,156 (Distored voices) 565 00:37:28,037 --> 00:37:33,292 - [Voice over] If I protest, it could hurt my business. 566 00:37:33,293 --> 00:37:34,169 (Military music) 567 00:37:34,170 --> 00:37:37,130 You've got to take people as they are. 568 00:37:38,047 --> 00:37:41,176 Money has no smell. 569 00:37:41,926 --> 00:37:46,389 Man proposes, god disposes. 570 00:37:47,140 --> 00:37:49,934 Where there's a will, there's a way. 571 00:37:50,185 --> 00:37:54,314 A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush. 572 00:37:55,440 --> 00:37:57,442 (Marching band performing) 573 00:38:32,602 --> 00:38:34,604 (Whistling, voices chattering) 574 00:38:36,689 --> 00:38:38,691 (Marching band performs in the distance) 575 00:38:40,610 --> 00:38:42,612 (Dancers rehearse) 576 00:38:46,449 --> 00:38:48,451 (Trumpeters rehearse) 577 00:38:51,496 --> 00:38:52,956 (Whistle) 578 00:39:01,881 --> 00:39:03,883 (Trumpeter continues rehearsing) 579 00:39:09,222 --> 00:39:11,224 (Shouting) 580 00:39:14,018 --> 00:39:16,020 (Chattering) 581 00:39:21,484 --> 00:39:23,987 (Full band rehearses) 582 00:39:49,429 --> 00:39:54,309 - I seem to be witnessing the birth of a new folklore of alienation. 583 00:39:56,311 --> 00:39:58,313 (Full band continues) 584 00:40:08,156 --> 00:40:11,909 - For now, the majorette corps are self-financed. 585 00:40:11,910 --> 00:40:12,577 (Marching drums) 586 00:40:12,578 --> 00:40:16,581 Most of their uniforms are paid for 587 00:40:16,748 --> 00:40:20,710 by themselves or by some club or association. 588 00:40:20,877 --> 00:40:23,671 - These young women use their allowance to... 589 00:40:23,838 --> 00:40:28,216 - Yes, to be part of this kind of group. They enjoy it. 590 00:40:28,217 --> 00:40:30,218 It's also good training. 591 00:40:30,219 --> 00:40:32,180 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 592 00:40:35,224 --> 00:40:37,602 - Finished? - Ok, thanks. 593 00:40:37,977 --> 00:40:40,354 - Clapperboard. One interview. 594 00:40:40,355 --> 00:40:42,357 (Loud drums) 595 00:41:02,001 --> 00:41:04,963 - [Voice over] Once again, I see the preachers of conformity 596 00:41:05,129 --> 00:41:07,006 promote mediocrity 597 00:41:08,383 --> 00:41:10,468 in a world they themselves don't inhabit. 598 00:41:14,639 --> 00:41:16,015 A philosopher said, 599 00:41:17,141 --> 00:41:21,521 "there is no pure accident in existence or in coexistence." 600 00:41:23,272 --> 00:41:25,274 (Jazz music) 601 00:41:26,901 --> 00:41:28,277 Right now, I know this: 602 00:41:28,861 --> 00:41:31,280 We've been living this way for 97 years. 603 00:41:32,115 --> 00:41:36,744 The Quebec citizen's standard of living is 10% lower than the average Canadian. 604 00:41:38,413 --> 00:41:42,667 It's 27% lower than that of neighboring Ontario. 605 00:41:44,293 --> 00:41:49,256 English Canadians account for 71% of Canada's population. 606 00:41:49,257 --> 00:41:53,553 At the start of the constituion, we made up 50% of the population. 607 00:41:54,262 --> 00:41:56,389 We're a minority in Canada, 608 00:41:56,806 --> 00:41:59,642 but we're 82% of the population of Quebec. 609 00:42:00,435 --> 00:42:03,771 Yet we control just 20% of its economy. 610 00:42:04,814 --> 00:42:07,316 Quebec has a population of six million. 611 00:42:15,199 --> 00:42:17,201 (Background voices) 612 00:42:20,913 --> 00:42:22,915 (Distant singing) 613 00:42:26,961 --> 00:42:28,963 (Distant whistling) 614 00:42:31,591 --> 00:42:33,593 (Footsteps) 615 00:42:49,567 --> 00:42:50,735 - Hi. How's it going? 616 00:42:53,488 --> 00:42:56,991 - It sure doesn't sound like it. 617 00:42:57,241 --> 00:42:59,243 (Bags rustling) 618 00:43:03,081 --> 00:43:04,081 You... 619 00:43:04,749 --> 00:43:07,126 Remember the play I told you about? 620 00:43:08,336 --> 00:43:09,378 The brecht? 621 00:43:09,545 --> 00:43:11,589 Mr. Puntila and his man matti? 622 00:43:11,756 --> 00:43:12,840 We're doing it. 623 00:43:14,467 --> 00:43:16,469 (Singing rehearsal in background) 624 00:43:19,514 --> 00:43:20,723 Hello? Are you there? 625 00:43:21,015 --> 00:43:23,643 We're mounting a produciton of Mr. Puntila and his man matti. 626 00:43:30,650 --> 00:43:31,776 I'm moving to the country. 627 00:43:33,528 --> 00:43:34,528 Where? 628 00:43:35,029 --> 00:43:36,864 - The place I told you about. 629 00:43:37,406 --> 00:43:39,283 - Saint-Charles? When? 630 00:43:40,910 --> 00:43:42,286 - Well, right away. 631 00:43:43,496 --> 00:43:44,664 - You have to go? 632 00:43:53,297 --> 00:43:56,175 You have to go? You can't stay? 633 00:44:01,556 --> 00:44:04,392 Well, it's not so far away. I could go every night. 634 00:44:07,812 --> 00:44:09,814 (Match scratches) 635 00:44:12,900 --> 00:44:14,067 You packed your trunk? 636 00:44:14,068 --> 00:44:15,444 - It's right here. 637 00:44:17,196 --> 00:44:19,907 - Your clothes and everything? - Your books? 638 00:44:20,658 --> 00:44:21,909 - And records. 639 00:44:23,202 --> 00:44:24,579 I cleared out. 640 00:44:27,582 --> 00:44:29,834 - So you're leaving town for good? 641 00:44:34,714 --> 00:44:36,716 (Fingers tapping) 642 00:44:37,842 --> 00:44:38,968 - Will you drive me? 643 00:44:39,677 --> 00:44:41,304 - Of course. 644 00:44:44,724 --> 00:44:46,559 - Don't worry. 645 00:44:46,726 --> 00:44:48,486 I'll come back to Montreal from time to time. 646 00:44:49,353 --> 00:44:50,605 To submit articles. 647 00:44:52,064 --> 00:44:54,066 (Match lighting) 648 00:45:11,334 --> 00:45:14,086 - Shall we? - Yes, let's go. 649 00:45:19,508 --> 00:45:21,510 (Bag drags on floor) 650 00:45:27,725 --> 00:45:30,478 [Voice over] You're not worried I'll find someone else? 651 00:45:31,604 --> 00:45:33,147 - [Voice over] You know, Barbara... 652 00:45:34,732 --> 00:45:37,902 You have a gift for love like some people have a gift for contempt. 653 00:45:39,153 --> 00:45:42,489 You have a loving heart exactly like some have a bad temper. 654 00:45:42,490 --> 00:45:44,492 (Low crowd noise) 655 00:45:45,534 --> 00:45:49,413 If you leave me, it will be for someone else. 656 00:45:51,666 --> 00:45:52,666 As for me, 657 00:45:54,293 --> 00:45:58,047 I can't love a girl who loves someone else. 658 00:46:01,550 --> 00:46:03,552 - [Voice over] Yes, you'll live alone 659 00:46:03,719 --> 00:46:06,514 and make all kinds of decisions that will change you. 660 00:46:07,265 --> 00:46:08,808 I understand that better than you. 661 00:46:08,975 --> 00:46:10,815 - [Voice over] I'm not going to make decisions. 662 00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:14,647 I'm just going to try to think. 663 00:46:15,273 --> 00:46:17,650 I've made a mess of my life here. 664 00:46:19,068 --> 00:46:21,821 - [Voice over] It would be better if we stayed together. 665 00:46:21,988 --> 00:46:23,948 But I won't try to convince you. 666 00:46:24,699 --> 00:46:27,201 I don't want things to change. 667 00:46:28,035 --> 00:46:30,036 (Bus passing) 668 00:46:30,037 --> 00:46:32,039 (Footsteps) 669 00:46:34,542 --> 00:46:36,544 (Jazz music) 670 00:46:46,429 --> 00:46:49,974 [Voice over] Claude, when you talk to me, you talk nonsense. 671 00:46:50,725 --> 00:46:55,730 If I have a loving heart, it's because I feel inadequate. 672 00:46:57,231 --> 00:46:59,483 And I wish I could have helped you. 673 00:47:00,609 --> 00:47:02,921 - [Voice over] You talk like we'll never see each other again. 674 00:47:02,945 --> 00:47:03,988 - [Voice over] Yes... 675 00:47:04,864 --> 00:47:10,453 You'll still see me, but you'll never be the same again. 676 00:47:12,496 --> 00:47:14,582 - [Voice over] Barbara, why drag this out? 677 00:47:15,624 --> 00:47:19,003 - [Voice over] Can I still invite you to spend the night with me? 678 00:47:19,628 --> 00:47:21,756 Or, to come have a drink with me? 679 00:47:22,840 --> 00:47:25,040 - [Voice over] You just want to know if I'm leaving you. 680 00:47:25,134 --> 00:47:27,014 - [Voice over] You're just following an impulse. 681 00:47:27,636 --> 00:47:29,638 (Jazz music intensifies) 682 00:48:10,679 --> 00:48:11,931 (Car driving) 683 00:48:12,807 --> 00:48:14,809 [Voice over] You don't want anything, Claude? 684 00:48:15,518 --> 00:48:16,268 - [Voice over] No. 685 00:48:16,269 --> 00:48:18,269 (Car motor running) 686 00:48:18,270 --> 00:48:20,272 (Jazz music continues) 687 00:49:00,729 --> 00:49:02,169 - [Voice over] What's Saint-Charles? 688 00:49:02,982 --> 00:49:06,569 - [Voice over] It's a rural area. - Montreal's vegetable garden. 689 00:49:06,944 --> 00:49:08,361 The farmers do alright. 690 00:49:08,362 --> 00:49:10,948 They don't have to go logging to support their farms. 691 00:49:24,753 --> 00:49:26,964 Now I can start to orient myself. 692 00:49:27,840 --> 00:49:29,008 That way's north. 693 00:49:30,134 --> 00:49:32,011 South, looking toward Montreal. 694 00:49:32,178 --> 00:49:35,139 West, where the sun sets and sometimes the moon shines. 695 00:49:35,473 --> 00:49:37,391 Far to the east is the U.S. border. 696 00:49:38,267 --> 00:49:39,518 My torture chamber. 697 00:49:41,770 --> 00:49:44,899 I know my revolt Springs more from my heart than my mind. 698 00:49:49,778 --> 00:49:52,490 - Hello madame. Can I help you? 699 00:49:52,656 --> 00:49:56,284 - I'd like to look around first, thanks. 700 00:49:56,285 --> 00:49:58,287 (Footsteps) 701 00:50:04,043 --> 00:50:06,045 - [Voice over] That's the end of my habits. 702 00:50:08,422 --> 00:50:10,049 I'll have to find new ones. 703 00:50:22,269 --> 00:50:23,687 I feel older, too. 704 00:50:25,940 --> 00:50:27,942 (Glass chimes) 705 00:50:29,443 --> 00:50:31,445 (Bass strings) 706 00:50:38,536 --> 00:50:40,538 (Footsteps) 707 00:50:59,098 --> 00:51:00,849 - [Voice over] Am I a rebel? - Yes. 708 00:51:01,725 --> 00:51:04,728 Am I a revolutionary? I don't know. 709 00:51:37,970 --> 00:51:39,972 (Gunshots) 710 00:51:45,144 --> 00:51:47,146 (Echo) 711 00:51:48,606 --> 00:51:50,608 (Footsteps) 712 00:52:08,542 --> 00:52:09,876 [Voice over] I keep coming across words and phrases 713 00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:11,295 I want to shout from the rooftops. 714 00:52:12,254 --> 00:52:13,297 It's hard to relax. 715 00:52:15,549 --> 00:52:17,551 (Car sounds) 716 00:52:20,554 --> 00:52:22,556 (Box rustling) 717 00:52:31,774 --> 00:52:33,067 (Bottle kissing) 718 00:52:36,570 --> 00:52:38,822 [Voice over] I didn't know you liked to cook. 719 00:52:40,199 --> 00:52:43,535 - [Voice over] You never even asked me if I knew how to cook. 720 00:52:43,911 --> 00:52:46,413 I'm still a stranger to you. 721 00:52:46,955 --> 00:52:48,415 You know nothing about me. 722 00:52:49,583 --> 00:52:51,584 - [Voice over] I'm a stranger to myself. 723 00:52:51,585 --> 00:52:52,669 (Classical music) 724 00:52:52,670 --> 00:52:54,588 No, I'll drink my tomato juice first. 725 00:52:56,799 --> 00:52:57,799 Nice, huh? 726 00:52:58,592 --> 00:52:59,843 - You like the table? 727 00:53:03,180 --> 00:53:05,724 I hope you like the soup. 728 00:53:08,977 --> 00:53:09,978 (Slurping) 729 00:53:15,609 --> 00:53:16,609 - Real good. 730 00:53:16,610 --> 00:53:18,612 (Laughter) 731 00:53:20,364 --> 00:53:22,241 The peas are hard. 732 00:53:25,494 --> 00:53:26,578 Your soup's good. 733 00:53:27,204 --> 00:53:28,622 - I told you. 734 00:53:36,630 --> 00:53:38,590 (Offscreen murmur) 735 00:53:41,593 --> 00:53:43,595 (Loud laughter) 736 00:53:46,849 --> 00:53:51,770 - [Voice over] See? We're giggling because we're not communicating. 737 00:53:54,148 --> 00:53:56,900 We don't even say the things we said before. 738 00:53:57,151 --> 00:53:58,527 - The peas are good. 739 00:53:59,653 --> 00:54:01,989 - [Voice over] I don't even know why I'm here. 740 00:54:07,786 --> 00:54:09,538 Okay, I'll eat my soup. 741 00:54:10,289 --> 00:54:12,291 Stop laughing. 742 00:54:18,422 --> 00:54:19,798 You have to read the paper? 743 00:54:20,924 --> 00:54:24,011 - There's an interesting article. - I haven't read a paper in three days. 744 00:54:24,178 --> 00:54:26,680 - And you haven't seen me in nearly a week! 745 00:54:29,767 --> 00:54:32,770 - "Feed the crow. He'll peck your eyes out." 746 00:54:33,187 --> 00:54:35,022 - Is that true? - What? 747 00:54:35,189 --> 00:54:38,567 - "Feed the crow. He'll peck your eyes out." 748 00:54:40,152 --> 00:54:42,696 Mean people are always ungrateful. 749 00:54:43,572 --> 00:54:45,574 (Spoon tapping bowl) 750 00:54:48,202 --> 00:54:51,830 - Your soup is good. - Very, very good. 751 00:54:53,832 --> 00:54:57,336 - "I taught you to swim. - Now you can drown me." 752 00:55:01,465 --> 00:55:02,840 (Newspaper rustling) 753 00:55:02,841 --> 00:55:05,469 Suspicions focus on terrorists over criminal underworld 754 00:55:31,078 --> 00:55:33,330 - [Radio] Radio-Canada presents the latest news. 755 00:55:34,498 --> 00:55:39,253 Defence minister hellyer has ordered a company of 250 men 756 00:55:39,419 --> 00:55:43,006 to guard the barracks threatened by a Montreal separatist group. 757 00:55:43,757 --> 00:55:47,010 - [Voice over] So that's what we've come to. Of course. 758 00:55:48,720 --> 00:55:51,013 I can't even guess who's involved. 759 00:55:51,014 --> 00:55:53,016 (Indistinct radio voice) 760 00:55:54,476 --> 00:55:56,270 I feel so sheltered. 761 00:55:58,522 --> 00:56:00,524 (Distant street traffic) 762 00:56:03,402 --> 00:56:05,403 - [Voice over] I always have something to do. 763 00:56:05,404 --> 00:56:06,738 I keep busy these days. 764 00:56:07,406 --> 00:56:09,491 I've started taking school more seriously. 765 00:56:09,908 --> 00:56:12,369 Or I'm taking myself more seriously. 766 00:56:13,787 --> 00:56:15,664 But I've got less free time. 767 00:56:19,626 --> 00:56:23,130 Life isn't a game. I want to take it seriously. 768 00:56:24,506 --> 00:56:25,798 - [Voice over] I read this: 769 00:56:25,799 --> 00:56:27,758 (Classical music) 770 00:56:27,759 --> 00:56:30,679 "When we judge something, we're not making a judgment. 771 00:56:32,180 --> 00:56:34,016 Our judgment is made possible 772 00:56:34,641 --> 00:56:36,685 by the thing itself." 773 00:56:38,186 --> 00:56:40,063 Hope has skipped three generations. 774 00:57:15,349 --> 00:57:17,351 (Machine gun firing) 775 00:57:18,477 --> 00:57:20,479 (Children playing) 776 00:57:21,730 --> 00:57:23,732 (Classical music continues) 777 00:57:24,107 --> 00:57:28,487 Life turns chance into purpose, history, destiny. 778 00:57:54,888 --> 00:57:56,890 (Children shouting) 779 00:58:06,608 --> 00:58:08,610 (Car driving) 780 00:58:10,487 --> 00:58:12,489 (Dog barking) 781 00:58:13,156 --> 00:58:14,658 Her name's manon something-or-other. 782 00:58:19,663 --> 00:58:21,665 (Truck passing) 783 00:58:26,670 --> 00:58:30,424 Now I know what a forest is, a field, a river... 784 00:58:31,800 --> 00:58:34,386 Because I've tested myself by observing them. 785 00:58:35,429 --> 00:58:37,431 (Envelope tearing) 786 00:58:43,562 --> 00:58:45,313 (Paper rustling) 787 00:58:47,399 --> 00:58:50,819 - "Friday. Dearest Claude, 788 00:58:52,195 --> 00:58:54,321 I know you'll understand 789 00:58:54,322 --> 00:58:55,682 why I can't come to Saint-Charles. 790 00:58:56,408 --> 00:58:59,578 There's too much snow. I haven't bought winter tires yet. 791 00:58:59,745 --> 00:59:03,331 We talk about you a lot though. Jean-Paul, Toulouse, the whole gang. 792 00:59:03,832 --> 00:59:05,709 I wish you were here. 793 00:59:06,460 --> 00:59:10,672 But my professor, Mr. Bourin, says I'm making progress. 794 00:59:11,590 --> 00:59:14,091 We're putting on a play soon, and I've got a big part. 795 00:59:14,092 --> 00:59:17,721 I need to study the script. 796 00:59:18,597 --> 00:59:22,225 I'll try to visit you Saturday or Sunday. 797 00:59:22,726 --> 00:59:24,186 Love always, Barbara." 798 00:59:26,563 --> 00:59:28,106 (Paper rustling) 799 00:59:29,608 --> 00:59:30,484 "Saturday. 800 00:59:30,485 --> 00:59:31,859 (Classical music) 801 00:59:31,860 --> 00:59:37,741 Dear Claude, unfortunately, I can't make it this weekend. 802 00:59:38,575 --> 00:59:40,327 My car broke down. 803 00:59:41,369 --> 00:59:45,749 Sending you all my love, and I hope to see you soon. 804 00:59:47,834 --> 00:59:48,752 Barbara." 805 00:59:48,753 --> 00:59:49,793 [Voice over] It's written, 806 00:59:51,213 --> 00:59:52,756 but what matters is how it's said. 807 00:59:53,381 --> 00:59:54,758 It can be very brief. 808 00:59:55,717 --> 00:59:59,096 But if it makes you sad, remember 809 00:59:59,262 --> 01:00:00,347 it's worse to drag it out. 810 01:00:03,225 --> 01:00:05,769 I'm reading philosophy, and that occupies my mind. 811 01:00:07,145 --> 01:00:10,148 I think constantly about what I'm learning. 812 01:00:13,985 --> 01:00:16,530 Every moment of the day, I dream about things, 813 01:00:17,614 --> 01:00:21,243 things I imagine in the world that are probably just a dream. 814 01:00:23,662 --> 01:00:28,792 I even imagine people whose presence here is conceivable. 815 01:00:30,043 --> 01:00:32,045 (Dreamy music) 816 01:01:17,299 --> 01:01:20,927 I do virtually nothing, but I know why. 817 01:01:25,473 --> 01:01:27,934 Now I can start from scratch. 818 01:01:54,461 --> 01:01:56,004 (Car driving) 819 01:01:58,757 --> 01:02:00,759 (Footsteps in snow) 820 01:02:46,638 --> 01:02:47,806 - Can I take that side? 821 01:02:48,682 --> 01:02:49,932 - I'd prefer this side. 822 01:02:49,933 --> 01:02:51,393 - So would I. 823 01:02:58,441 --> 01:03:00,443 (Sheets rustling) 824 01:03:06,950 --> 01:03:09,202 You took my place. 825 01:03:17,335 --> 01:03:18,669 (Exhales) 826 01:03:18,670 --> 01:03:20,797 - Do you realize the time you waste on makeup? 827 01:03:27,929 --> 01:03:28,929 - Yes. 828 01:03:30,473 --> 01:03:32,100 I also know... 829 01:03:34,436 --> 01:03:38,982 I enjoy wasting time like that. 830 01:03:39,983 --> 01:03:42,736 - Just admit that you waste your time doing pointless things. 831 01:03:43,069 --> 01:03:44,069 - No. 832 01:03:45,447 --> 01:03:47,323 I'm doing two things at once. 833 01:03:47,324 --> 01:03:52,370 While I'm wasting time, as you say, I'm also thinking. 834 01:03:52,871 --> 01:03:54,998 My mind is far away from what I'm doing. 835 01:03:55,832 --> 01:04:00,754 - No offense, but you don't seem to really be living. 836 01:04:02,339 --> 01:04:05,592 You act busy, to create the illusion of a life, 837 01:04:05,967 --> 01:04:07,594 that you're getting somewhere. 838 01:04:08,887 --> 01:04:11,264 When all you're really doing is marking time. 839 01:04:11,848 --> 01:04:12,640 You're not getting anywhere. 840 01:04:12,641 --> 01:04:15,101 - You're the one who's not getting anywhere. 841 01:04:22,150 --> 01:04:25,612 - Do you have any idea why I moved out here to the country? 842 01:04:26,654 --> 01:04:30,533 Do you know why I'm here? 843 01:04:31,993 --> 01:04:33,036 - Yes, I know. 844 01:04:33,661 --> 01:04:36,664 - What are my reasons for being here, do you think? 845 01:04:37,916 --> 01:04:38,916 - Yes. 846 01:04:40,126 --> 01:04:41,419 What are my reasons? 847 01:04:53,056 --> 01:04:54,432 You don't know? 848 01:04:57,811 --> 01:05:00,271 - I'd rather not discuss it. 849 01:05:05,443 --> 01:05:07,445 But what about you? You're not living. 850 01:05:09,781 --> 01:05:13,410 You... You're just a living corpse. 851 01:05:16,204 --> 01:05:20,458 - It's hard to live when you're not given the means to act 852 01:05:21,084 --> 01:05:22,709 or you've got to create them yourself. 853 01:05:24,087 --> 01:05:26,672 - That takes... that takes a little time, Barbara. 854 01:05:26,673 --> 01:05:30,051 But it's better than wasting time on makeup... 855 01:05:30,218 --> 01:05:35,180 Learning lines, seeing friends, and gabbing about nothing. 856 01:05:36,100 --> 01:05:39,561 - Life has meaning, and I'm trying to grasp it. 857 01:05:40,186 --> 01:05:43,106 - I'm trying to say somehting, will you let me talk? 858 01:05:46,693 --> 01:05:48,013 - I've listened to you for hours. 859 01:05:49,696 --> 01:05:54,993 - But for every minute that I... that I talked, I listened to you for hours. 860 01:06:02,250 --> 01:06:03,960 - There comes a time in your life, 861 01:06:05,879 --> 01:06:09,007 especially if you're as nationalistic as I can be, 862 01:06:09,841 --> 01:06:12,594 when you realize that if you don't do something at the right time, 863 01:06:13,386 --> 01:06:14,596 the exact right time, 864 01:06:15,221 --> 01:06:15,763 - yes, but... 865 01:06:15,764 --> 01:06:20,518 - If that time is very close and you don't take action... 866 01:06:21,394 --> 01:06:24,147 It's over. You're done. 867 01:06:26,524 --> 01:06:29,235 - When that time comes, I'll believe you. 868 01:06:31,779 --> 01:06:35,783 - At one time, I felt because of your nationality you might 869 01:06:35,950 --> 01:06:39,161 be able to understand our problems, 870 01:06:39,162 --> 01:06:41,998 understand our aspirations. 871 01:06:43,917 --> 01:06:46,794 But somehow you don't get it. 872 01:06:47,795 --> 01:06:50,298 You see nothing. Absolutely nothing. 873 01:06:53,301 --> 01:06:54,301 - That's your opinion. 874 01:06:56,054 --> 01:06:58,181 In my opinion, you see nothing. 875 01:07:00,558 --> 01:07:02,310 - Barbara... - You're blind. 876 01:07:02,685 --> 01:07:03,811 - In two years... 877 01:07:05,813 --> 01:07:07,190 We'll see. 878 01:07:07,357 --> 01:07:09,067 - More empty words. 879 01:07:12,445 --> 01:07:13,655 (Light switch) 880 01:07:15,073 --> 01:07:16,449 - [English] “Barbara, my daughter, 881 01:07:16,824 --> 01:07:20,537 [French] Your father and I are worried about you. 882 01:07:21,454 --> 01:07:25,207 You come home too late, too often, and you seem to be avoiding us." 883 01:07:25,208 --> 01:07:27,418 - Etc., etc., etc. 884 01:07:29,295 --> 01:07:31,297 (Clothes rustle) 885 01:07:33,424 --> 01:07:35,426 (Distant sreet traffic) 886 01:07:46,729 --> 01:07:48,731 [Voice over] I don't know where to go anymore. 887 01:07:51,943 --> 01:07:53,945 (Water in sink) 888 01:08:13,131 --> 01:08:15,508 I don't know what will happen with Claude and me. 889 01:08:16,092 --> 01:08:17,510 I just don't know. 890 01:08:20,722 --> 01:08:24,100 Before, I thought there might be at least 891 01:08:25,810 --> 01:08:29,606 some chance of a future for us. 892 01:08:32,734 --> 01:08:35,320 But that faded pretty fast. 893 01:08:36,738 --> 01:08:38,740 (Moving items on counter) 894 01:08:40,700 --> 01:08:44,370 I don't know whether he's ruined his life, or... 895 01:08:46,998 --> 01:08:50,376 Or if he's just getting started. 896 01:08:57,258 --> 01:09:02,512 But I can't stand his complacency. 897 01:09:02,513 --> 01:09:05,516 And his pessimism. 898 01:09:07,393 --> 01:09:09,646 It's not easy to be a pessimist in this world. 899 01:09:10,855 --> 01:09:12,273 You've got to choose. 900 01:09:18,112 --> 01:09:21,366 Instead of going to the country, he should have gone to Europe. 901 01:09:37,674 --> 01:09:39,676 (Paper rustling) 902 01:09:45,056 --> 01:09:48,142 He won't tell me what he thinks. 903 01:09:49,811 --> 01:09:51,312 He avoids me. 904 01:09:54,190 --> 01:09:56,943 Either because he thinks I'm stupid, 905 01:09:57,110 --> 01:10:03,700 or because he just can't be bothered anymore. 906 01:10:06,285 --> 01:10:09,080 Right now, I'm completely torn, 907 01:10:10,581 --> 01:10:16,713 between my emotions or feelings... 908 01:10:20,800 --> 01:10:24,345 And what I know is right. 909 01:10:36,107 --> 01:10:40,611 He thinks he has revolutionary ideas, but 910 01:10:42,739 --> 01:10:44,741 he's afraid to take any risks. 911 01:10:46,242 --> 01:10:49,829 He takes small steps, never big ones. 912 01:11:16,647 --> 01:11:18,858 And he thinks I'm afraid. 913 01:11:22,612 --> 01:11:25,531 But he's the one who's really afraid. 914 01:11:27,867 --> 01:11:29,410 He's afraid of life. 915 01:11:41,631 --> 01:11:44,675 He says I think only of myself, 916 01:11:45,676 --> 01:11:47,428 but he leaves me no choice. 917 01:11:49,388 --> 01:11:52,016 He shuts himself off completely, 918 01:11:54,310 --> 01:11:58,439 then feels hurt because I don't show enough interest. 919 01:12:03,402 --> 01:12:05,822 I can't even do my makeup today. 920 01:12:19,961 --> 01:12:20,961 - "Thursday. 921 01:12:21,546 --> 01:12:22,546 Sweetie, 922 01:12:24,715 --> 01:12:26,175 I can't see you this weekend. 923 01:12:27,718 --> 01:12:29,971 We've got a fencing class, 924 01:12:30,847 --> 01:12:32,306 and I can't miss it. 925 01:12:32,974 --> 01:12:35,977 Yours, Barbara." 926 01:12:38,688 --> 01:12:40,690 (Melancholy music) 927 01:12:43,484 --> 01:12:44,484 [Voice over] Ultimately, 928 01:12:45,611 --> 01:12:47,613 my feelings for Barbara 929 01:12:49,615 --> 01:12:51,701 were just a sign of transition. 930 01:12:54,245 --> 01:12:57,248 It was just part of me finding myself. 931 01:14:00,937 --> 01:14:02,563 The end